We trust! 1st SDA visit.

Seeing all those faces and yet still knowing that our Childs picture wasn't there might be one of the hardest parts to this process. After sitting in the office for almost an hour we know that God is still in control and that he has a greater plan. We pray that through all of this God may be glorified more than our story. We pray desperately for the children we saw and that they to may know the love of the ABBA Father. 

With all that said, we were shown close to 30 files all being severely developmentally or physically deformed. Their diagnosis ranged from Down Syndrome, Cerebal Palsey, HIV, and much more. Most of these children had numerous rejection stamps on their paperwork. There was a pair of boys both healthy that were presented to us first, one a precious 4 year old brown headed boy and his younger brother a blond hair blue eyed boy about to turn 3 next week. Though these two boys were precious we knew that they were someone else's children and they were not ours. Though many people opt to visit a child at even the slightest interest we felt that it was unfair to the children and ourselves when we knew they were not who we were here for. 

The hardest part to all of this, is that we know that in this country there is a child that we are supposed to adopt but we have to trust that no matter how this process plays out we will never give up trying to bring that child home. We encourage you all to pray for our second SDA appointment, that God will show the psychologist the child we need to be with, and that when that picture inside a plastic paper cover is handed to us we know that is our child.

We desperately miss our daughter and wished we could just hold her but for now we trust that this process is where God desires us to be. We are so thankful to Kate's sister and enjoyed seeing our little rugrat smile at us last night while we were on skype. Enjoy.